Not surprisingly, everyone marked near zero, commenting something along the lines of "Love is pure and generous." To be frank with everyone, I was under this same impression for the longest time in my life, but lately I've been feeling otherwise. So riddle me this Deviantart: "Can love be selfish?"
Just so it's clear, I'm speaking from a standpoint of forbidden love. If you've read my story Double Edged Blade, you should understand that that was not inspired from nothing. Three people, one person in middle being torn by the others because of the love that they have for them; except this time, one is just watching it as that person gets dragged farther away. Sounds like a sappy love story, I know. But then why? Why do I feel the butterflies in my stomach? The ones that only show up in key points of my life. You might tell me to appreciate what I'm watching, as it is the blooming of something beautiful. But how can I when that person is getting more and more distant?
I feel selfish, guilty for loving someone society tells me not to... but then tell me. Is that really love I'm feeling? Or am I just a teenager trapped in his own morals and false emotions?
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After thinking about it a little, considering what my friends have told me, I can't help but feel even worse. Maybe it isn't love. Maybe it's just a contempt for a love that I feel is changing our friendship. Or maybe it's just jealousy. And feeling something like that brings incredible guilt.
With the way I generally think, I should know by now that nothing lasts forever: I'm an optimist for the same reason. Making the best of a situation or looking on the bright side has always been what I do best. But does that mean I have to be a passive observer? One that never interrupts the flow of change? Regardless of my morals, that just doesn't feel right.
Thank you for your support guys. I don't know what's what anymore, but I'm sure to figure it out eventually... hopefully.






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Here's something you need to know:
Dogs need food and water or they cannot grow
"He who is cruel to animals becomes hard also in his dealings with men. We can judge the heart of a man by his treatment of animals." ~ Immanuel Kant
Tis truly a laugh basket. Enjoi!
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Dave '04
-Tidus-
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"He has the emotions of a pregnant women." - *zraya218 June 13, 2009.
I play World of Warcraft.
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I'll hold my head high, and fight like a girl.
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"He has the emotions of a pregnant women." - *zraya218 June 13, 2009.
I play World of Warcraft.
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I'll hold my head high, and fight like a girl.
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"He has the emotions of a pregnant women." - *zraya218 June 13, 2009.
I play World of Warcraft.
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Here's something you need to know:
Dogs need food and water or they cannot grow
"He who is cruel to animals becomes hard also in his dealings with men. We can judge the heart of a man by his treatment of animals." ~ Immanuel Kant
NIGHT ELF HUNTER!?
Wait, no, that's more harsh than it is funny. :<
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... und vergib uns unsre Schuld wir auch wir vergeben unsern Schuldigern.
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I'll hold my head high, and fight like a girl.
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